Last night, Daddy stay late in office for work, I took care of Jacob for the whole night.  When I tell Jacob stories at our bed, I started not feeling too well and I told Jacob that mummy was not feeling well. 

He was lovely, he said that "find Daddy".  Since I was not sure if Daddy had come back home, I asked him to check.  He moved quickly outside, searched arround the house and reported to me that Daddy was not there...he tried to comfort me by kissing me..he even gave me flower =)  He was really a lovely and caring boy.  He has grown up a lot and I strat to feel that he begin to take care of me..

Although he is like me, I hope he will be happier and more open up than me. 

 Not sure if it is because of the pregnance, I feel a bit down and blue recently.  Also, there seems to be high pressure from different dimensions...sometime, i really want to have a big break or a big change...but everything is tighlited mounted and it is not easy to have a breakthrough...may be the boundary is within myself ..  or may be, i should take some days off to have holiday myself (with Len =p).

We temporary call the baby as Jeffrey.  In this few days, I start to feel Jeffrey's first movement.  It was excited to feel that because I felt that I can start interact with him and he starts to participate our "activities". 

I was too busy with works recently, I promise Jeffrey to take better rest and will try not to work so fast.  I should be a better mum.

Hey, Jeffrey, do you know that since very beginning, Jacob was responsbile to feed you every morning?  Jacob was quite jealous at the beginning that he said Jeffrey was the name of his teddy bear.  Now, he starts kissing and talking to you.  I feel very happy for this.  Also, Jacob usually points to his tummy saying that not baby, is tummy and then point to you saying is baby, not tummy.  Of course, he will also point to daddy saying, fat man, is big tummy.

We are waiting for you =)  Build up a strong and healthy body and join us when the time comes.  We start imagining how the family will go picnic, do exercise, etc.  Can't wait for that!

Last week, after a walk at Science Park, there was a little bit of bleeding.  So, I have taken Friday off and went to Dr. Wan to check up.  Um...today, after a walk, also have some bleeding.  It seems that this baby don't want me to walk or work too much but only want me to sleep and take rest.

 Anyway, the doctor said that it was fine.  The ultra-sound showed that the overal growth is heahtly =)  And we found out the baby to be a boy =)  So, Jacob is gonna have a brother!  We are very happy!

We are searching for a name of the baby.  We come across two names, one is Jasper and the other is Jeffrey.  Temporary, until we find a better name, we will call him as Jeffrey.

 Jacob is still acting a bit jealous to baby.  He still don't like to say Good Morning to baby but rather to teddy bear, mickey...  Well, it is fine, it takes time and we just better to emphasis too much. 

We went to have check up yesterday.  It is amazing that Little T has a human shape now.  We can cleary see the 2 hands and 2 legs and the head.  The doctor has also measued the thickness of the neck sink and everything is normal.  The doctor said that baby seems to be quite active who waves hands and legs to say hi to us and Jacob.  Leonard recall that he didn't see Jacob move like this last time.  Honestly, Jacob was really gentle in when he was in my tummy, not much movement.  Well, Leonard see a tiny little thing and wonder if the baby is a boy but the doctor said that it could also be the shape of the girl part and therefore is not very sure yet.  He said that it will be more sure in next month.  The doctor said that in general the baby growth very well (about 5 cm) except that my sugar level is a bit high and I have gained 5 lbs in 1 month!!!  Have to be careful.  In addition, we have done a blookd test as well and we will know the result on Monday, hope that everything is fine like last time. 

BTW, when we were waiting at the reception area.  Jacob played very happily with a baby, he kept following the baby and talk to the baby (just like the same way as what we do to him).  Hope that he and the baby will get alone happily the same way.  Now, Jacob already learned that there is a baby with me.  Most usually, he is gentle and he will say don't sit on the baby.  But when he get sleepy, he will get naughty and try to push his hand to my tummy saying don't push at the same time.  His purpose is to look at my angry face.  Well, it will be a big challenge to us how to handle their relationship and hope that we can handle it well.

 Week Eleven

In early this week, my sickness suddenly disappear.  If that is the case, it is really great and this baby is really a good boy/girl.  This could probably the last time in my life to experience the pregnancy sickness.  Honestly, having pregnancy sickness is really bad...you feel so weak, endless sleep, bad temper, etc.  Well, this week, we will visit doctor for check-up, hope everything is fine.  Not sure if we will know if baby is a boy or girl this time.  Will let you know =)

For the purpose of writing blog, we agree to temporary call our baby as Little T.  I still feel very tired this week.  So far, unlike from the time when I had Jacob, no much morning sickness or sick feeling so far.  In fact, the following things are different from the time when i had jacob:

1.  Don't like eating chicken or much meat (except if it is BBQ or deep fried).
2. Do like eating McDonald, KFC, etc.
3. Like to drink soup (especially tomato) and vegetable.
4. Don't like eating too sweety or strong taste things.

 Things that are the same:

1.  Need to chew gum every time after meal..otherwise, feel sick. 

Same as the last time, the most challenging thing for me during pregnancy is the ill feeling (psychologically) of doing nothing.  I mean, since I am so tired, I need to sleep a lot.  Just take this long holiday as an example, I didn't do much work and is not very productivity (from the working point of view).  This makes me feel quite guilty.

Well, but I should remind myself.  I am actually very productive because my body needs me to take rest so that it can produce another body.   The more tired I am, the faster little T grow up.  I hope that little T can grow up well =)

We had a checkup again during the weekend.  We decided to try to go with Jacob and see if we can handle him in the clinic.  During the ultrasound checking, we hear the heart beap of the baby.  It is about 13x times per minutes.  When Jacob looked at the screen and heard the heart beap.  He said "Oh, baby crying"..Ha ha..oh..but may be he was right...cause after the checking, the nurse told me that there was a bit bleeding.  The doctor told me that it is not totally stable and asked me to take a week off.  I felt a bit sad.  Just like what I have said, I didn't realize that I was so tired and I didn't take enough rest.  I was a bit too engaged with work and was working under quite high pressure.  I felt bad that I didn't take care well enough this time.  But it is a good reminder, since the doctor asked me to take rest, I start feeling very tired and have slept over the whole weekend.  Mummy promise to tvery ake good care of you, I love you. 

 By comparing the the week 7 when I had Jacob, it seems that I am not feeling so sick.  But same as last time, I don't like strong taste food and I need to chew gum after meal.

After all these busy days, I can finally sit down to write down this.  Yes, this is a private and secret time between me and bigger bean bean (should have grown up a bit now).  So far, my changes are:

1.      Body was itchy

2.      Face skin becomes more beautiful (smooth and white)

3.      Start to have sickness feeling, my heart beat is now about 90 times a minute.

The change 1 and 2 are different from the time when I had Jacob.  It is interesting to contrast it to the reaction of Jacob at week 6 .  From now on, I should record the journey down at least once a week.  So, i am responsible for their record of life before their arrival and Daddy is responsible for their record of life afterward (ha ha, Daddy's work is much harder =p). 

According to Pregnancy.org, here is the development at week 5, it serves a good reminder for me to take care of myself because all the major developments are happening right now which will affect his/her whole life!! Have to be extremely careful!!  That is why I feel better during weekend (having more rest).

Week Five

• First heartbeats begin - If you have an early ultrasound you may not be able to recognize this tiny being as a baby, but there is no mistaking what it feels like seeing your child's heartbeat on that screen. That rhythmic beat is echoed in your own heart.
• Umbilical cord develops - This is your baby's lifeline in utero. It bears the responsibility of pumping in oxygen, removing waste, and supplying the necessary nutrients for the remainder of your pregnancy.
• Blood is now pumping - All four heart chambers are now functioning, insuring your baby's body will receive all it needs over not only the remainder of your pregnancy but throughout life.
• Most other organs begin to develop - Your infant's lungs start to appear, along with her brain. Already your little one is preparing for a quest for lifelong learning!
• Arm and leg buds appear - While they may not appear to be much at this stage it is ok to dream of the future. Just imagine your ballerina twirling and jumping around your kitchen floor. Or perhaps you will have the precocious boy that throws the perfect pitch -- right through the neighbor's window.

The expected date is 25 Oct 2008.  小豆豆, welcome to our family =)

Quorum

 the number of members of a group or organization required to be present to transact business legally, usually a majority.  (used in voting regulation)

 舉一反三

反，推論。「舉一反三」指從一件事情類推，而知道其他同類的事情。語本《論語．述而》。後用「舉一反三」形容人於學習中善於觸類旁通。

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今天做了很多事情：

1一大清早到了淺水灣和玩沙，是Jacob的一次。可惜淺水灣的沙很粗

2一家人在父親節探公公。上年，還能在你面前說出父親節快樂。時間過得真的很快，已差不多一年了。

3到西貢Anthony's Catch吃了一個 extremely enjoyable lunch。

上星期五，終於可以成功hand-over了一個project 。做了eLeaarning 已8年，很期待re-organize 一下，重整人生，make significant change in life，希望開始講求多一點quality instead of quantity. 希望闊視野。

還有一件事想記住。千萬不要有assumption, everything can be viewed with very different angles and have very different results. 

回應你早幾天寫五首使我感動的外語曲，這幾年每天在忙(尤其有了Jacob的這一年)，有時忘了好好把生活的一點一滴記下。

 
《If》

我第一次聽這首歌，是從你在Australia寄給我的cassette tape，我們那時只是朋友+pen-friend，那時我決定了去加拿大讀書，那tape陪住我渡過了很多日子，在你的tape內，我特別留意這首歌，另外還有”when will I see you again”，因為那時有一刻覺得歌詞好似你想對我說的說話，但我告訴自己沒有可能，那些只是你想和我share你喜歡的歌。因此，我無甚惦.掛的去了Canada讀書。怎知，多年後，你才告知我，原來歌中寄意。不知道，如果當年你早些告訴我，我們的路會否行得容易一點？

 
《Perhaps love》

有很多人說，婚禮那天忙了一整天，過得很快，什麼也不記得，但在教堂的那片段，我永遠記在心中。01年，知道爸爸患了cancer，我便有一個願望，好盼望他可以帶我步行入教堂，然後和你簽紙，你再把我的頭紗揭起……如果人生可以停頓，可否留在這首歌的每一刻？

 
《I believe》

對不起，看這戲時，聽到這首歌，令我想起，我曾經好像那女主角一樣痛苦，曾經有一個守在我身邊的人，但我就在等一個不在我身邊的你。到我可以同你一起時，我又放不下不在我身邊的他。我永遠好像比現實生活走慢了一節，生活在一個錯了的空間一樣，非常痛苦。不過，如果當天我選了跟另外一個人，我知道你會像男主角於餐廳內在我不在時與他去講和我相處的十條規矩。我常覺得，在這世界上，只有你一個會對我這樣傻。只有你做到，愛，不一定要擁有，見到我開心，你便開心。

 
《 When will I see you again》

This song is not in your list because it is my favorite.  It was in the same tape that you recorded “If” to me.  不用我多說，十幾年後的今天，當我們知當”答案”，再聽這歌，

是否特別有意思。  我們long distance 了咁多年，可以work到，is a miracle。是你堅定的信念，以下歌詞才夢境成真。

When will I see you again?
When will we share precious moments?
Will I have to wait forever?
Or will I have to suffer and cry the whole night through?

When will I see you again
When will our hearts beat together?
Are we in love or just friends?
Is this my beginning or is this the end?
When will I see you again?

最後，我想和Jacob送給你

《Happy birthday》

還remember that it is still not possible for us to celebrate birthday together when we were apart, it was a leisure, was a dream　…we can only sing songs across the long distance call or in fax…. So, I won’t attach the clip here because I am gonna sing to you in person. 

 
Hope you will like this belated gift and like the birthday dinner that I prepared for you.

Suddenly want to record down this feeling and experience. Having a baby is like giving you a chance to go through again the begining part of your life which you had no memory. It gives you a change to experience it again from a very different angle. I could not imagine that I had been so close and so dependent on my parents. I could not imagine I had been like what Jacob is now. I could not imagine the love that my parents give me....all the patience, all the love and how they devote their life for us.

Daddy, although we had not talked a lot when you are here but I understand it. How you hold on and how you prevent me from visiting you in afraid of affecting me and my baby...How you spend your life to think and do things good for us. Daddy, thank you and I love you.

It is now until I am a monther, I understand it better...

You are the World

Completion, Good Reward.

The World is the final card of the Major Arcana, and as such represents saturnian energies, time, and completion.

The World card pictures a dancer in a Yoni (sometimes made of laurel leaves). The Yoni symbolizes the great Mother, the cervix through which everything is born, and also the doorway to the next life after death. It is indicative of a complete circle. Everything is finally coming together, successfully and at last. You will get that Ph.D. you've been working for years to complete, graduate at long last, marry after a long engagement, or finish that huge project. This card is not for little ends, but for big ones, important ones, ones that come with well earned cheers and acknowledgements. Your hard work, knowledge, wisdom, patience, etc, will absolutely pay-off; you've done everything right.

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First, on 24 March 2007 when Jacob is about 11 months old. He started walk quite a few steps by his own. It happened at GrandMa's home that Jacob used to use our hand as handle to walk but this time, he simply hold the ear of a doll (treating is like our hands or the handle) and walk by his own from one end of the carpet to the other end. This is really a big breakthrough. At the same time, he now can understand a lot of what we said. I have taught him "clap hands" 2 times, he can do it now when I say "clap hands" or when I sign a song with "clap your hands". In addition, if we asked him who is a good boy, he would put both hands on the chest indicating that Jacob is a good boy. I also want to record down his characters:

- He is quite "leader". Instead of we hold him to walk, he hold our hands as handle and lead us to where he wants to go. He also likes control and do things his own. (sorry, this is very "mummy" =p)

- He likes sharing. He likes to share things with people he likes. He would treat you milk, the dummy, any "good thing" that he likes... no matter you like it or not, he would deliver and force you to take it =)

- He is considerate and like to care pepole. When we cough, he would拍拍你心口!

- He is strong in rympth. If he hears music, he would sometime dance or用手打拍子.

- He has strong eye sight and hearing. My broher has bought a "star machine" from Japan to him which simulates stars in space (very little fade spots on the ceiling) and Jacob loves to see those and count starts when he sleeps. Also, he is very sensitive to low volumn sound.

Well, another thing that I have to record it down is that I have bought a tester yesterday. The result looks similar to last time (last weekend) which is negative. When I was about to throw it away, I see an extremely light line....um....same as last time when i had Jacob, I showed to Leonard and he said that there was no doubt to have a line! But again not sure yet...let us be the "confused and most stupid couple in the world" again =)

在Jacob八個半月大的時候，Jacob有突破性發展。他明顯smart 了很多，記憶又好了很多。現在懂得和我們玩捉，即是我抱住他，然後爸爸扮捉他，他會尖叫、大笑，很緊張似的。還有，他現在會associate thing better, 如果他在一個地方見過一樣東西 (e.g. snowman, elephant 的公仔)如果他在另一個地方見到時(e.g. television or similar but in different format)，會associate 到。Also, Jacob在街上很熱情地跟其他人and BB 打招呼又請請，是一個很sociable 的 baby。

So far, Jacob，似乎是quite聰明的，學新的東西時，他會很focus地observe往，然後不久便會掌握到，只是他也很快lost interest and get inpatient，表現出不屑的樣子， not sure if this is the general character of baby or that is his character, I think that traditional teaching may not fit him.

Besides, Jacob 現在吃固體食物很ok了，不過他吃南瓜(both bb food and real) 時，試過嘔，試過三次，暫時不試了。還有，他吃了一個多月糊後，近來吃時會打好多泠震，so, we eat back congee again! 現已食no.2 的奶粉，will start to try fish baby food soon!

Last but not least, the reason why I write in English sometime is because Leonard and I start to speak with Jacob in full English. We originally speak with Jacob mainly in Cantonese. There was one day, I speak in fully English with him, he suddenly looks at the television.  He seems to realize that he usually hears English from Disney playhouse. So, we think that it is the time =)

在2006年尾的最後二個星期，在他8.5個月大時，Jac Jac 感冒之餘，還有突破性的發展。首先，二個星期前，他突然有一天開始不停說Da Da ，幸好Leonard馬上拍下，因為last了幾天後，他昨天突然不再說Da Da，突然叫起媽媽來。雖然他說時還未有意識是叫我們，但相信做過父母的都會明白，你一定會覺得自己小朋友的聲音是世界上最好聽的聲音。另外，Jac Jac的腳步也行得好多了。我們還在估到底Jac Jac 會先說話定先行路？

在未做人父母前，我真的以為很多性格是後天養成，但從Jac Jac 身上，我看到很多built-in 的characters. 不得不承認，他的性格真的有點像我，人細心大，未學行先學走(現在還有跳舞)，未學說話先學唱歌。貪新鮮，沒耐性。很喜歡接觸人，很八卦 (like Daddy)，但希望慢慢培養他有Daddy 的High EQ and Patience.

BTW, below 是婆婆買給JacJac的 帽帽。

自從引入了固體食物給Jacob，他便由每天大便變成每三天。那天去完健康院，聽姑娘講try to replace one meal by congee，結果便出事了。Jac Jac 六天沒大便，結果我們midnight 4:00 am 去了醫院，help Jac Jac 通大大，因實在too dried, Jac Jac 自己無可能去。結果，要從下面jit一些藥，Jac Jac 才可排出5 粒好像紅酒stopper 一樣硬的便便，搞到流血，Jac Jac 當然流晒眼淚，我很心痛，只加把頭放在他心口來安慰他。後來，我們決定還完，從新開始，可能因為遺傳，要extremely careful.

Then, I found out that usually bb need to have about 7-8 oz water but Jac Jac has only 3-4 oz.

 Besdies, just want to record down how he find his first tastes of:

- Banana:　吐出來

－　Ｃａｒｒｏｔ　Ｃｏｎｇｅｅ： Keep closing the mounth

- Fish Congee: Keep closing the mouth　

－　Ｄｒｉｎｋｓ： may start with some chinese style first, will consider the drinks of the event.